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[Dec. 12th, 2009|11:55 pm] |
someone shake it off, for me please? its been 2 months, 2months of struggling and its not about to be over anytime soon. and i thank god, hubby's by my side. recently, dark clouds starts to emerge from nowhere. and that leaves me paranoid and so afraid of the coming future. its so near, its within reach. and anticipating cannot put my mind at ease. just their unexpected appearance in my life, leave me traumatised, once again. |
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| spoilt for choices |
[Nov. 12th, 2009|02:03 pm] |
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| | ride it- jay sean | ] | currently am waiting for hubby to reach camp so i can prepare to fetch him (: morning, interview w/ honey at tampines. thanks for the trip back ; terrence & honey.
i've to apologise to rash darling. things chnaged so much , too much ever since we've got together. yet, i'm very grateful to him for being such a dear, understanding my situations and all. we've lesser dates, haven really been on a proper one. he helped massaged my weak legs almost every night. i've to think fast and make up to him.. today's our 45th day. 55 more days to our celebration.. & ohhhh, guess what ? we're making our rings today ! (: happy happy joy joy. i miss that fat boy.
it's been over a month, since i've moved out. haven had anyone calling up and asked if i'm still surviving and all. i miss didi so much . well i know at times he still do read my blog. but yet, i'm still pissed at him. utterly dissapointed. i just hope everything goes well for him and family.
next, condolences to arthur & family. for the lost of his dearest grandmum. i haven had the chance to attend to her funeral. firstly, i'm ashamed for not visiting them during this past year. secondly, i dont wanna meet some people who i have to avoid. my bad .
love to the earthlings (: |
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| dead and gone |
[Nov. 10th, 2009|05:56 pm] |
it's been quite some time that i've not blog and there are quite a number of people who's been trying to get thru me. my apologies.
this past month was shit of obstacles for me. and fortunately, my hubby has been by my side. just a brief update :
-i've cut my hair =.- -i'm out of job -i'm sick
:( now i'm feeling pathetic. well well, hubby will be home tomorrow . and we're getting our rings (: cheers to that |
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| abscond |
[Oct. 19th, 2009|11:14 pm] |
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| | angry | ] | it's been almost 2 weeks now. i'm still here, alive and kicking. it has come to a point where my life has no turning point. and for this, i've came to a conclusion that it would be better if i would to walk straight and not turn back, at all. this is, LIFE.
hubby has been a dearie, lately. and for that, i've him to thanks for being tolerance and patience towards his strong headed wifey. (: ily,bby |
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| not having it all |
[Oct. 14th, 2009|11:13 pm] |
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| | in the end- kat deluna | ] | & when they say nothing last forever, then what makes, then what makes, love exception ?
it's a time, that everything will have to go so low. i'm barely there yet, bear with me,
p.s: i might wanna move back to blogger. |
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| the world ahead of us |
[Oct. 13th, 2009|12:55 am] |
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| | say you love me - massari | ] | to all those, who've been finding for me, i'm terribly sorry. i'll try to make it up to the lovely earthlings soon(: & i miss didi alot :( a pity, i've no courage to call him. thanks bro, for all you've done without me knowing. i'm eternally grateful to you. i wouldn't had dream you would ever help me in this state.
it hits me thinking , everything is almost stable. they questioned, i start to wonder. "don't you regret?you will in time to come" frankly, i dont. the fact that i've guts to leave was to prove i'm ready to take whatever consequences there's to be in times to come. i've so much more to accomplish, i've big dreams. i wont let just a mistake i made, stop me. i'll keep going, i will. and the best part was, i wouldn't have to do it myself. for i know, my hubby will always be there. not forgetting the people whom walked with me, thru my darkest period.
i'll strive harder, stay stronger. for i know, i'll reap what i sow |
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| dig your guts out |
[Oct. 12th, 2009|12:01 am] |
i've been feeling exhausted. fortunately, i've true friends that apparently helped me out thru my darkest period. all i've to say was, thank you and i've no idea, how i can ever ever repay them.
i miss my boyf, plenty :( |
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| stay hunny, don't stray |
[Oct. 5th, 2009|07:12 am] |
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| | ride it- jay sean | ] | it's the worst i've done. i'm skipping n level, for a very wrong reason. i dont know since when it'd become a choice for me. but then i decided, i'd enough. it'll be now and abscond. or later and get what i deserve.
"promise me, you'll wait for me" "i don't have to promise you or you don't hafto ask, you know i will wait for you" |
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| i miss you |
[Oct. 3rd, 2009|10:22 pm] |
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| | stickwityou-pussycat dolls | ] | & i miss that fat boy.
th time when he just turned and carry me, when i was throwing tantrums. th time when we looked in a room but realise it's a mirror door and it reflects us. th time when we held hands and run in th middle of a carpark. th time when he got banged by someone jealous. th time when we spin in circle on th bridge. th time when he carried me down from th little stage and spin me, we laughed so much. th talks about 5, got me so excited.
on another hand, i would like to apologise to fyfy. i'm really sorry, because i didn't mean it. forget about it, please.
today was like _______. did almost full , aches here and there. and then my very first boyfriend , called on me =.- tomorrow, hubby's fetching from work . and prolly we'll play lanterns ! (: awwwwwww.(L) lalala~ |
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| touch me |
[Oct. 3rd, 2009|01:32 am] |
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to my dearest ena sis, after all you've been thru. just know that i'll always always be here for you. cheer up , babe! (: xxx
today wasn't really a great start for morning, but we ought to be glad that we didn't got caught, eh sis? (: sleep & eat & solve problems time! aftermath, went for my beauty appointment , then meet sis again for lunch till hubby picks me up (: went to his place while he gets ready, and we're off to henderson wave oiiii ! bus-ed to harbourfront, superb long bus-ride. hubby slept on me =.- start from marang trail. halfway, (okay, its not even halfway) i almost felt like dying. hubby asked if i wanted him to carry me. heh . then faber walk and yadayada . henderson wave was awwwwesome ! th view was spectacular . we thought it was worth everything. th forest walk, was wit nobody but us . halfway through, we held hands and run (: it was something to die for. we both knew it . like "TARRRRRRDUH!" right right right, hubby?(: then hiltop walk was another supreme suprise. but overall, we ended at hortpark . it was everything we could ever asked for. altho, its already late in th night. we played water and all . had heart to heart talks under the huge tree . it's like th night never ends. aftermath, back to meet louis & co. then macs for supper @ park mac. but we ate out under th void deck. then home sweet home !~
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| put a stop . |
[Oct. 1st, 2009|11:16 pm] |
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| | th chattering of my brother on th phone | ] |
when plans does not turned out as planned, that's when we need a screw-driver.
went to school earlier today, and got caught for th striking colour of my hair tied into a ponytail. Dm wasn't being lenient enough, but somehow i can tell he's sorry for what he said. in fact, school was mundane. cannot think of what i've done except eating during recess and sleeping during th last period. home, aftermath to change and all then off to buy hair dye. after which was led by leg massage , that effing hurts and tickles which caused me to scream unknowingly =.- what an embarassment ! that's all folks . the rest is for me to know, and for you to find out (:
last night, it truly hurts. mayb not as much but then it still hurts. i show no fortitude but its comforting to have hubby, holding onto my hand when it happened. th feeling was undescribable, my tears are almost welling but i know, its time to let it go. its not fair , to him nor me. last of all, hubby dont deserve this treatment nor D deserves me |
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| tear then torn |
[Oct. 1st, 2009|05:14 pm] |
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| | jay sean - stay | ] | when trust isn't there, that's when everything falls apart. i don't need your assurance, just give me your best hunn.
this time, everything came crashing on me. i've no energy to fight it off, but i will muster th courage somehow. wait and see |
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| tick tock goes the clock |
[Sep. 29th, 2009|12:34 pm] |
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| | massari- say you love me | ] |
twenty-eight :]
woke up realising i was seriously ill :( texted hubby & bestie to inform . bestie skipped school to bring me to th doctor, since hubby's still in camp . had happy meal for breakfast . aftermath went to poly , and had got 2 days mc . then hubby text to say he's appointment cancel so he can book out early like immediately . he picked me up at hub then send me home . we changed and meet up later on . he was late , so he had to find me and then was not allowed to talk to me for 10mins . then we started making our way , to sengkang . passed fafa, elmo & her present (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEB ! hope you'd enjoy . and last long wit elmo oiiiii . saw th clique , acit , tunangKUSH, kaka, and plenty more . then we made our way to serangoon , and got lost =.- we cut across a field of long grasses and hubby carried me across(: but it all doesn't matters caus i get to see my dearest sis & god-daughter. had plenty to catch up . then we made our way back. got on th wrong bus, so we end up walking home from ave 10. met louis and adi then as usual we'll stop by th playground to sit and chat before sending me home . our star is always following us, right hunn? (: we saw blinking stars . heh , and then we reminisce about th day at the beach. when hubby said he wouldn't mind staying there FOREVER . so i asked if he wants to stay there, then he said NO. caus then th wifey will be going home . HAHA . th day at th beach in sembawang park . was almost perfect , it was everything we could ever asked . with th fireworks, it's all so suprise . well , i miss him now :( and he's sick , becaus of me . xuan couldn't stop laughing looking at us both, falling sick. overall , it was a fun day .
today's another day that i've to lead without my hubby. :( then again , i know he's always there
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[Sep. 28th, 2009|07:37 am] |
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
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| | jay sean - cry | ] | thanks to all for the well wishes and encouragements . most of all, to mummey (: finally everyone can be relieved handing over their dearest princess over to RASH ehhs . cheers, DARLINGS !
well , today's full day for me. hubby booked in late , again =.- woke up in th morning and got so worried. then had didi to call him , aftermah knowing he's fine th wifey retreats to sleep again . work was better today . time past, and overall i enjoyed serving today (: after work complained to hubby thru texts . heh , well after all .. i've a low maintenance hubby . oh , and i love him <3 well, tomorrow's another hectic day for me . and poor hubby hafto do this with me . anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAKAK ! oiiiii , i lovvvvvvvvvve you many many :D in advance , happy birthday FAFA babe :D see ya, tomorrow !
nights earthlings ! pssssssttt .... i cant wait to see hubby |
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| you'll be my yesterday, today and th coming tomorrows |
[Sep. 27th, 2009|01:04 am] |
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photos on facebook (:
today's far east to botanical garden to sengkang to pasir ris and back to amk . BOTANICAL GARDEN, was a big suprise from me to hubby. he never knew for the past 1 week. suprisingly, i manage to keep it hush hush . he was so ultimately shocked, he kissed me on my forehead. luckily for us that we did went. the view and all was specatcular, and the road seems never ending. hubby took tons of my picture, mostly candid. then 2 hours later we've got to rush to aunt's place. well, to jalan raye actually =.- something i managed to fit in my schedule. ayah said he hopes to see hubby next year . i was like "HUH?!" , we weren't even an item back then. aftermath, followed didi to meet his gf . walked around compass and accidentally saw each other again, so we decided to go to tampines but changed to pasir ris. due to the oh so pretty me wants to ride on the ferris wheel at ehub. had plenty of crumbs , mashmallow coated wit choc, choc lollipop and candy floss ( something from didi). it all seems like double date (: we've another big date coming up, this time wit many couple i suppose? back to amk, dropped by to meet sis at her workplace and to pass her the fudge cake (: then to adi's place for his open house.
well hubby, today's the day we'd finally made it official. something everyone has been wanting to see. it's like with you, it's the future that counts
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| buat sementara |
[Sep. 26th, 2009|11:03 am] |
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th rest will be uploaded pretty soon. bear with me , earthlings (:
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| now or never |
[Sep. 25th, 2009|07:54 am] |
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| | put it down - tpain ft ray j | ] | a million thanks to hubby who picked his wifey up from work yesterday. had 2 hour of heart to heart talk. "are you ready to settle down, then?" then i'd changed th topic like i'm gifted for it. it's been do long since i've last got myself committed. its not as if i've no idea how to do it, again. deep down we know, our feelings are there. everythings going exceptionally fast. ifs the future, we're talking about. not something just for a minute. i've no doubts that things will be just fine. just a little while, longeeeeeeeer.
having a bad soar throat and cough. i assume, its the weather. so fast, i was just so all excited last week. and tomorrow's saturday.(: i'll be blogging later, love little earthlings ! |
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| another day |
[Sep. 23rd, 2009|11:40 pm] |
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| | soulja boy - kiss me thru th phone | ] | today's miserable :( waked up contemplating to attend school or not. and eventually did, but was almost late. sorry to gf who had to wait for me under my block (love you many many , until i die!) got caught for hair check by VP, for not clipping up=.- caus its not even covering my face. what a moron! 2 periods of maths. struggling to keep my eyes open. aftermaths 2 periods of history that we skipped. was in th toilet the whole while, that i fell asleep=.- during recess after we're almost done eating got called out by DM. got screamed in the middle of the canteen. write reflection form . all kay siao =.- was supposed to do 10days of detention, but we got away becaus of our powerful reflection writing (: hubby has been a great help . after school, home . did th essentials and off for nap. woke up at 7 and prepare for therapy time (: enjoyed it plenty, so relaxing and worthy.
finally, i've sorted out my thinkings . thanks to all this cute earthlings. till tomorrow, |
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| as beautiful as you |
[Sep. 22nd, 2009|11:25 pm] |
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today: picked hubby up at yew tee (: hot fudge for breakfast. trained back to amk , accompanied hubby home to change. town aftermath, for hubby's lunch. window shopping =.- couldn't find anything thats nice. then smoked wit lena. controversy, plenty. bus-ed to sembawang for brunch wit mummey and daddey. but in the end, we had coffee beans instead. chat and crap . mummey and daddey got to know hubby. then we bus-ed to sembawang park. th atmosphere and everything was so beautiful. sat on the rock platform, and had heart 2 heart talks for 3hours. it was almost romantic, we saw th beautiful lights of the other island, colourful fireworks and stars of course! holding hands while hugging, that's enough. then bus-ed plus trained home(: saw faiz and co then mas and co. overall , it's the most peaceful day i've had so far (: mummey and daddey's hoping to see hubby again soon.
saturday's a suprise for hubby . had done research and whats not. really hoped he'll like it ! (: so so excited and looking forward to it . |
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